Just as expected

So far no good news. Looks like I'll be stuck here not knowing if we'll ever get off this fucking base for another 3 months. I can't stand it. I'm so close to breaking down, it's not even funny. My heart is just numb, I'm so depressed. ALL I FUCKING WANT IS TO MOVE. Why the hell does everyone act like it's so fucking easy to get picked for Korea?! Jeff has done it two times now, and NOTHING. Nothing. People get picked for it that don't want to go, he's fucking volunteering and we get nothing. My life is miserable. I just want to go home. I just want to hear some fucking good news for once. I'm always the one who's optimistic and hopeful and I MAKE things happen for me. But, ever since we've been here I can't make anything happen. I'm not in control of my life anymore, and I fucking hate it. So I have to be depressed, with no friends, very little help, hating everything about this place, not knowing when or if we'll ever fucking get to leave. It's so stupid. SO stupid. WHY NOT US?! PLEASE! Who the fuck do I have to talk to to get shit done? I'm so done with life. It just keeps fucking me over in every way possible. I'm tired of being broke. I'm tired of Internet Window Shopping for all the things I want to get for the kids for christmas but we can't afford anything. I'm tired of having no friends or anyone to talk to. I'm just sick and tired of it all. What's the fucking point?