Where do I begin.

So I'm trying to start blogging again...let's see how well this goes, shall we? I'll begin with an introduction. My name's Melissa, and I'm 23. I currently live at Davis-Monthan AFB, Arizona, which is located in Tucson. I absolutely hate it. We moved here from Bellevue, Nebraska, which is where I wish I could be. I've been married to my husband, Jeff, who's in the air force, since December 21, 2007, and we've been together since October 28, 2006. We have two beautiful children, who mean the world to me. Their names are Gavin and Samantha. Gavin was born November 9, 2007, and Samantha was born June 21, 2009. They're the most beautiful and amazing children I've ever met, but I could be biased because they're mine lol. We've been in Arizona for a year and a half, and it just seems to keep getting worse. I wish I could be happy here, but I can't. I try, and I try, but I'm just not happy. We're trying everything we can to get out of here, so far no luck....I don't know what else to say about myself. I'm trying to teach myself to play guitar, but I'm not too good yet haha, which I guess is ok since I just started learning 4 days ago haha. I'm hoping to start taking some college classes soon, though I'm still not sure what I want to major in, but no matter what I major in I need to get my basics out of the way. Hmm..what else. Oh, my best friend's name is Becker. Well..that's her last name, but she's gone by that ever since I met her when I was in 10th grade lol. She's the best friend anyone could ask for. I can be brutally honest with her, and vice versa, and we never get pissed about it, and just know we want the best for each other even if we might not want to hear it at that time.

The only problem I currently have with writing a blog is that my life is so insanely boring, I don't have much to talk about haha. My biggest enjoyment in life (aside from being a mom and a wife and all that stuff) is watching tv. And I watch a lot of tv, it's seriously ridiculous. But Jeff works from 3 PM til 11 PM, and my kids go to bed at 7 PM, so I have 4 hours that I'm by myself pretty much, and can't go anywhere, so I just drown myself in tv shows, and their lives, and stories, and dramas, and excitements. Something to keep my mind off of how much I hate where I live and how I feel like a lepper since nobody here wants to be my friend. I've never really had a problem with making friends, until I got here. I had a couple great friends, but now they've both moved away...and I'm still stuck here, with no one wanting to meet me. I've tried. I went to an Avon party recently just to get out and meet people, and when I posted on the online event invite that I'd be going and was nervous since I didn't know anyone, a bunch of girls were like "wooo! new people! can't wait to meet you! don't be nervous everyone is so welcoming!" I got there right when it started and there were only a few people there...I walked in and people turned towards me, and then went back to their conversations. Not a smile. Not a hello. Nothing. I don't even want to try to make friends anymore, because I just keep telling myself there's no point, since we'll be moving soon...though there's no proof that we're moving soon, it's just a hope I have to tell myself.

Ok...this ended up being a lot longer than I planned. But, that's going to be all for tonight, back to getting lost in my tv shows.