Autism

Today I had a speech evaluation for my son, Gavin. He'll be 3 on November 9th, and has yet to talk. He babbles all day long, but refuses to say any words. Because of this and other factors I noticed after reading online different warning signs of autism, my husband and I had begun to worry that Gavin might be autistic. Today, that was confirmed. For the most part anyways. The speech therapist said she's sure he has autism, but she doesn't have the ability to officially diagnose him, so she's referring us to see an occupational therapist, where they will do tests on him, to give the official diagnosis. It did hurt to have a professional confirm something you've worried about for your children. Because, you always want the best for your kids, you want them to be like a typical kid, and not have anything that could make their lives any more difficult than they need to be. It's hard, but it's not the worst thing that could happen. There are so many worse things that could be happening, I have to remember this is not the end of the world. Yes, I cried a bit when they told me, and a bit when I started to drive home from the appointment. But, life could be so much worse. And now we can do everything in our power to get him the help that he needs. I think one of my biggest fears though, is me and Jeff giving too much attention to Gavin, and not enough to our daughter Samantha, because I'm scared we're going to be focusing so much on helping him, that it takes away from Sam. I know we're going to do everything we can to make sure that doesn't happen, but I just get scared I guess. I always want my kids to feel they're getting equal amounts of attention, love, and help. I can't imagine life without either of them, and love them both so much, it kills me when I feel like I'm not giving them equal attention.
But anyways, I just wanted to update about Gavin, so that's all I think I've got for today.